The beginning of change

It’s been an overwhelming week. We announced we were selling the restaurant, and also moving the bakery storefront back up to the production bakery (not by choice, but to make a long story short we listened to what the universe was telling us).

The amount of support we’ve received from the community is humbling. I knew that people would understand, but I didn’t realize how many people would take the time to write emails to us, or send messages through social media. It makes me cry, but not because I’m sad. There’s just so many things bubbling under the surface, that my body just doesn’t know what to do, so it lets the tears flow. 

Growing together

 We celebrated our 12th wedding anniversary this week - if you're counting all the years we've been together, it'd be sixteen. That's a while to be with someone. Not as long as other people, but still a fair amount of time. What we have been able to do is grow together, and separately. Obviously we're not the same people were were in our early 20s, but we still want to have fun, build a life together, and fight for that. Yes, we've had some hard times where one of us has slept in the guest room from time to time, but ultimately I think we are stronger than we've ever been as a couple. I am thankful for that.

And now we've entered into the next phase of our lives: planning a life without a restaurant at its center. Navigating what that looks like for both of us is going to take some time, but day by day we're beginning to look at what that really means. Tyler already seems to have a plan for where he is headed, while I'm trying to bumble around and figure things out. I know I will, and he is supportive of it, but right now I feel a little lost. But I am hopeful, and I have a lot of support from everyone around me. 

Thinking about our anniversary next year is weird, but in a good way. So much is up in the air right now, but for the first time I feel like we have a bit more control over the direction we want our lives to take. We both have a lot of soul searching to do, as a couple and as individuals. I am excited to see where we end up. I know big life changes take a while, but I hope a year from now I'll be able to look at this and smile fondly about the first steps being taking toward something - whatever that something may be.